Its One Of Those Days

Yep...it's one of those days...

What type of day? It's one of those days where you feel blardy lazy to do anything but just sit back and ogle at emptiness. Well, not emptiness...its just the empty windows that you open up. There are things on those windows...blogs, facebook, wookiepedia (its a Star Wars thing...) and forums...but it still seems empty...

Wonder why...

Maybe it's due to not being able to sleep last night. It was hot, I was sweaty and God knows how I hate sleeping in sweatiness...lol

Or maybe its the jitters that I'm feeling...wedding jitters they call it...I think. I'm excited and at the same time worried. Yeah...I know I know...the girl I'm going to marry is the most beautiful and fantastic girl any guy can ask for...but I still worry...

It's two months to our wedding...

Anything can happen...they say that there will trials and tribulations during that time. It will test the depth of our love and trust.

They say that once we're engaged, both of us must be weary of what will happen around us. What tests that will be sent to us to face.

They say until we are officially married, the hardest of challenges is getting there...

Hmmm....

They say a lot of things don't they...

For me its pretty simple.

I just want to love her.

I just want to marry her.

I just want to live my life with her.

I just want us to go through the remaining of our lives together...

Pretty simple eh?

Thought so...

You see...They say a lot of things...but in the end its up to you to actually be honest to what we want and be honest and true to one another...

Challenges? Yes...we go through it everyday...

Trials and tribulations? Uh huh...part of living...

So?

Back to what I was saying...it's just one of those days...and all I know after the 10th of May...I will be engaged to the most fantastic girl in the galaxy (too much Star Wars lately)...

I would like to share an SMS I sent to her last Saturday...

' I love you sayang...and there isn't a day that I'm thankful for your love towards me...When we're finally married it will be the happiest day of my life and I know for the rest of my life as well. I love you my dear sweet Irina Hariati, the love and life of my heart and soul...'

Well...here we go to the mushy stuffs...but I like it and I want it to stay this way until whenever...

I'm Getting Married In July!!

Woohoo!!!

Heh...betcha that wasn't the opening some of you might have expected right? Well, its been a long time waiting...

To be honest, there were a lot of ups and downs in my current relationship. (Read the previous postings ya...heh) And there were times that I almost lost her...but thankfully our love for each other is strong and all I can say is I thank God for it...seriously...sometimes I do tend to do foolish things and it does cause me trouble...heh (tell me which guy who doesn't...)

But at least she can see my flaws earlier on rather than later on. I asked her, why does she love me so much...and she said she loves me for my flaws, so when she knows them, she will be able to see my strengths...tell me how can you not love someone who is so honest with her answer...and that someone will be my wife soon...

July...it's just a few months away...

What do I feel?

Excited. Why? Cause I've met the right person that I want to be with. She's adorable and she's fantastic. And to know that before I sleep I can look at her and when I wake up and see her...it will be something that I am looking forward to have. To be able to buy groceries for OUR home, furniture, movie nights and late outings...hari raya shopping, 'fasting' together...it's going to be beautiful...and the best thing is...this year's Hari Raya will be our first as husband and wife!!

Scared. Why? Cause I'm a bit worried if I would be a good husband to her. Will I do the right things as a good husband would do? Will I mess up? Will I say the wrong things? Will I be able to provide food and shelter for her? Will I be able to care for her when she is sick? A lot of worries and questions does pop to mind...but somehow, when I'm with her I feel like I can manage...

So yeah...it's just around the corner and we've just taken our first step...I've bought her the rings for the 'merisik' and the engagement. It was beautiful to actually sat next to her and pick out rings...the feeling was different cause at least we can see it now that its really happening...

July...its just a few months away...

And I can't wait for it to come...

Preparations? It'll be done.

Emotionally prepared? Yes!


Now all I need to do is prep the paperworks and get ready for the big day.

Irina Hariati, I can't wait to be married to you...I want to continue loving you more and more by the day...I don't want it to stop...I want us to be so much in love with one another until whenever...

So if this is corn and cheese...so let it be...heh...

I know I'm in love and I'm getting married!

Signing off for now...