A Father's Tale...

To my little baby girl,

A few years back, I had an entry for my future child. At that time, we didn't really have a proper name, but it was a name nonetheless for you. At that time, you weren't here yet. And I was missing you terribly.

And here I am again, putting another entry for you.

As of last week, you're 5 months old in your mommy's belly. In another 4 months, we'll be able to see you. God knows how excited both of us are. Waiting for our little girl to come to our world.

When we first found out of your arrival...we had to take the test 4 times to be sure. Actually the third test got us depressed when the doctor said that your mom wasn't pregnant.

We were quiet the drive back home. We afraid to hope. We didn't know what to feel.

Your mother bled the day after, and made an appointment with a doctor later that Friday.

Alhamdulillah was the only thing I could utter when the doc said, 'There's your baby...'

There you were...our little child...slowly growing.

My eyes teared up and the swelling of joy rushed to my heart.

That was a few months ago. And now you've grown strong and healthy...

I've been rubbing your mommy's tummy for the past few nights. Putting oil and gently massaging it so that it would comfort her. What I found out later, that you enjoyed it too. Every time I rub your mommy's belly, I would take the time to talk to you. I'm not sure either you understand me or not...but I just kept on talking to you. My daughter. I would tell you about how we feel for you, how excited and happy we are.

But the most amazing thing that happened was last night. These past few weeks your mommy has been having bad dreams. She kept on waking up in the middle of the night, and would have problems sleeping later. Then last night, I asked you to help her. Help her sleep. I asked for you to try to meet your mommy in her dreams.

The whole time mommy said you were moving so much. You responded to my touch and voice. And I kept asking for you, my little girl to help mommy. She needs the rest...

And this morning, when I asked...she said, 'Your daughter listened to you...'

It turns out that she slept soundly. She had a good night's rest.

Thank you my little unborn child.

I'll talk to you again tonight, and will try to do it every night if I can...so that you'll hear my voice and know, that we're waiting for you patiently.

Mommy and Daddy loves you very much...our little treasure.

Anzen Chitai - Jounetsu

Heh...

I've been a follower of Anzen Chitai for quite sometime. My dad used to play their songs in the morning before going to work and I took a liking to them.

Until recently, I slowly collected their songs from the net. It was kinda hard at first since their songs were way back in the 80's and some weren't in good quality.

About a year ago, I found one of their songs on youtube. Instantly downloaded it and become one of my all time favourites, sadly the quality was really bad and converting it to mp3 just made it worst. So I went on a search for a better quality. Since the original title was in japanese kanji, it was evident that my search will be a challenge.

After a while...I found it.

Downloaded it.

And feeling happy...

So I'm gonna share the link here for anyone else who might want to find this wonderful song from this amazing group...

Anzen Chitai - Jounetsu (Passion)

LYRICS:

Itsuka oii kaketa
Akoga re wa ... mada mabushii no ni
Ima mo Nani hitotsu ... 

Tsukame nai ... Teno hira
TENDER YOUTH x2
Kaze no manazashi ga areba 
KITTO x2
Yume wa hajimatta bakari

Mune ni ... Toi kaketa
Hageshi sawa ... mou ... Tomerare nai
Wasure ... kakete iru

Kono sora o ... Miagete
TENDER YOUTH x2
Ushinau mono no yori tsuyoku
MOTTO x2
Dakishimeru ude ga hoshii
TENDER YOUTH x2
Furi muiteru toki ja nai
KITTO x2
Yume wa hajimatta bakari
TENDER YOUTH x2
Kokoro oto jikome nai de
MOTTO x2
Tsutae au koe ga hoshii
TENDER YOUTH x2
Furi muiteru toki ja nai
KITTO x2
Yume wa hajimatta bakari


Anzen Chitai - 情熱 (Jounetsu)

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Soul of My Soul.

It's been 3 days since I got the news.

I'm gonna be a dad.

Surreal. Exciting. Nervous. Scared. Happy.

Those are the words that roughly describes what I feel at this moment. Coming up to our 4th year of marriage, it was big news. Ever since last year, there have been so many trials for me and my wife. Both personally and socially.

But that is life. More over, it's about growing up. Way of thinking most of it.

I'm gonna be a dad.

That sentence has been playing in my head over and over.

Before getting the news, my wife asked me a simple question,'Why do you want children?'.

I answered with all the usual answers, wanting to continue the bloodline...my legacy etc.

She said, 'that's it?'

I was quiet and thought about it...my answer rang hollow. And I told her the truth...

I wanted a child because...I wanted to know how it feels to be a dad. To have a child look to you and knowing that you'll do anything in your power to give the best in life. To have small hands tugging at your shirt to get attention. To have a little voice calling me, 'Daddy'...

It sounds so simple. But in truth, it's something I want deep inside.

I'm already blessed with a beautiful wife who loves me wholeheartedly.

I never complain that I don't have enough, I know God is great and He gives us the things we wish and want when He thinks it's the best. So I have faith in Him.

Alhamdulillah. I can only thank Him for the gift He's given me and my wife. A treasure.

Our child is still in it's early stages, and I hope...that he/she will grow strong and healthy. I do hope that he/she is just as eager to come out to the world to meet his/her parents. We have so much love to give...

I pray for my unborn child a safe journey for the next 9 months. It's journey to meet us is still far...and during that journey, we can prepare ourselves to be parents in mind, body and spirit.

For when this child comes to meet us...we'll be ready.

Soul of my soul. Child of my heart.

Counting the days.